My thoughts for the day

I have had time to do alot of thinking over the last two months, about my life and where it's heading. The one thing I was sure of was a life with the love of my life. The time apart made me fall deeper in love.....she is my life, my treasure, my everything.

Then I started thinking about what I wanted to do - get my degree, find work/career, continue my business or go in a complete different direction. But all I've been doing is thinking!!! Not doing!!!!! I just need to do these things instead of thinking about them. I listening to podcasts everyday and think about starting one but what stops me is that I don't know what kind of podcast to do. There are so many out there. I'm sure I'll find something soon, I mean take that Lonelygirl15 who made all those youtube videos and got famous.....hahahahhaha....... what a joke.........But I should just do and stop thinking......right?!

Web designing is pretty cool, need to brush up but I'll get my website live soon. With all these social networking sites around and Web 2.0 designs to think about...it gets me quite excited to get my website up and running.

My trail of thoughts have seemed to suddenly come to a halt.....brain dead maybe?......too much thinking for the day......need to make it relax.......

The burning questions in my mind......

Feeling quite lost and confused though I know I shouldn't......or am I really lost and confused? or just plain crazy? Let me try to explain.

My love is back and I am very happy and delighted about that fact. Life becoming normal again.......Lately she has started writing again.....I have always loved her writing.....she's a writer see.....but hadn't written for awhile........something or perhaps someone has sparked something in her to start writing.......a good thing a guess as I get to read her writing once more......but as I read her words.....at times I get confused by what she writes...............she writes from the heart and her words flow like water down a stream, gripping my concentration and wanting me to read more. But somehow what she writes lately makes me feel a little lost and confused......one for the fact that she's able to write alot nowadays......and two....I feel ashamed to say.......

I shouldn't be feeling like this though because I know that she loves me dearly and we are forever soulmates but I can't help but something when I read her blogs.......it makes me feel weird........sends so many questions firing up in my head.....needing answers yet afraid to ask them for fear of losing......I don't want to let it drive me crazy and I know that I should not be reading more into this than I should but how I wish for this to be over soon.......soon so I can get my love back.....all.....once more as I know that there is something there........a women always knows............hmmm.........I must be strong and not let this get to me before it drives me up the wall........

My new N95 phone

Now I know that the Nokia N95 has been out for what seems like donkey's years now. I've been wanting to get this phone since the first time it was announced by Nokia. But alas I was too skint to buy one when it was released here in the UK. So after many many months of waiting until I could finally get it, I am now a proud owner of the Nokia N95, getting it free on O2 through my yearly upgrade. I have had it for a week now and I must say I'm loving it!!

Apart from the poor battery life, it's a great phone. When it arrived at my door I ripped it open and started using it there on the spot. Transferred all my pictures and files from my old phone, synched my contacts and I was away. I tried out all the applications and even upgraded the Office Suite to be able to edit my documents. It met all my expectations and has everything I need in a smartphone. One thing I miss from my old phone though (Sony Ericsson P990i) is the full QWERTY keyboard for writing texts and documents but iTap helps, though I think I may invest in the bluetooth keyboard soon for editing my documents on the road. I'm loving the Lifeblog that comes with the phone, it's a great way to chronicle my everyday life, though I've only been using this for one day so I'm still learning my way around using Lifeblog.

I'm loving the camera taking so many random pictures when I can. Also the video camera is excellent to capture those moments and then watching it on the TV using the TV-out cable. I even got myself the Nokia Tripod so I could use my phone to make my YouTube videos.

So all in all I'm loving my new N95 even though it took forever for me to get. For me it's one of the best smartphones out there.